Saturday, 16 April 2016

Important Message for Tara Louise Murphy Perth

C. A. CHILDRESS, Psy.D.
LICENSED CLINICAL PSYCHOLOGIST, PSY 18857
219 N. INDIAN HILL BLVD., STE. 201 • CLAREMONT,  CA 91711 • (909) 821-5398
Hi Jessica,
I know your name is not Jessica, but we haven’t met personally and I wanted to talk with you, and to other young people who are in the same situation like you, so I just chose the name Jessica. My guess is that you’re around 13 to 17 years old, and if your father is giving you this letter then your family is probably struggling with anger and conflict and pain, and I want to help, I want to help you specifically.

Your father is giving you this letter from me because he cares very deeply about you. I know this only makes it hurt more.  I’m hoping that I can point you in a direction out of the pain.  Right now the only way you can see out of the pain is to make your dad disappear.  You hurt less then.  Things are calmer and better inside.  Well, mostly.  There is that deep pain that still remains, but you can just not think about that.

I’m not going to ask you to fix things with your dad, because I know that’s not possible right now, not with the situation as it is. But I’m a family therapist, a psychologist, and I want to explain a little bit about the situation you’re in so that you understand a bit more. I think this will make things hurt a bit less, a lot less. That’s why I’m writing to you, to all the Jessica’s, to explain the situation to make it hurt less.

You know the situation.  Your mum and dad got divorced a few years ago and there’s been a lot of anger and conflict in your family. Did you know that when parents get divorced and there are children, the marriage ends but the family doesn’t? When there are children involved there will always be a family, even after the marriage of the parents’ end. The family structure just changes. It changes from a together-family structure before the divorce, which is united by the marriage, to a separated-family structure after the divorce that is now united by the children, and by the children’s continuing relationship with each parent.  

Before the divorce, it’s the marriage that unifies the family. After the divorce, the children have that unifying role. But the family doesn’t go away, the family doesn’t end.  Not when there are children. It just changes, from the together-family before the divorce that’s united by the marriage, to a separated-family structure after the divorce that’s united by the children.

But, as you know, your family is having a lot of trouble making this transition, and everyone is blaming the other people for the difficulty, and there’s anger and hurt. I’m sorry this is going on for you. As the child, your role in the family is to bring things together, to continue to unite the family. But when there is a lot of conflict and anger, this anger tears the family apart… and tears you apart in the process.

The reason the family is having trouble successfully moving from a together-family to a separated-family structure is because the people in the family are having trouble processing their sadness surrounding the divorce, surrounding the loss of the together- family. Losing something we value always creates sadness in us. Your dad, your mum, and you were all sad about the divorce. Even if it didn’t seem like it at the time, even if there was a lot of fighting and anger, that’s only because people were hurting, and they blamed the other person for hurting them. 

When a divorce happens there is sadness. Big losses cause grief. Everyone was grieving the loss of the together-family, but instead of feeling sad and crying, the grief got turned into anger and blaming and that’s what’s getting in the way of transitioning into the new separated-family structure. There’s still a lot of unresolved sadness and grief… even in you… especially in you.

You love your dad and your mum; both of them. You may say you don’t love your dad, but I know you do.  That’s just your sadness and pain talking when you say stuff like that.  Right now it hurts to love him. Because it hurts to love him you think it’s because he’s doing something bad to hurt you.  That makes sense (but it’s not true).  When people do bad things to us it hurts us. So because you’re hurting, he must be doing something bad to make it hurt. But that’s just all that blaming stuff that’s keeping the family from successfully moving into the new separated-family structure. The real reason you hurt is because you’re sad that the together-family is over, and you miss your dad. Really, you miss your dad and you feel really sad about that.

You’re actually feeling sad because you’re just feeling sad, not because of anything anyone is doing. You’re feeling sad about the loss of the together-family. You’re feeling sad because there’s so much fighting and conflict, and you’re feeling sad because you’re caught in the middle of the fighting between your parents.  Your role in the new separated-family is to bring your parents together, to unite this new separated-family.  But they have so much anger and blame toward each other that it’s impossible for you to bring them together, and instead their continuing anger is ripping you apart. That’s what’s making you sad. It hurts, and you wish it would stop hurting.

You don’t want to be a part of their fight. You just want to be a kid with your own stuff, your school, your friends, your activities, your stuff, without having to worry about their stuff, their anger, and their conflict. But you can’t help but find yourself in the middle of it, because that’s your role as the child in the new separated-family structure. You’re the shared bond that keeps the family together. You belong to both households. You belong to your mother’s new family AND you belong to your father’s new family. But when there’s a lot of anger and conflict between them, then you get caught right in the middle, because the child’s role in the new separated-family structure is to hold the family together - but you can’t do that because there is too much anger, and resentment, and blame.

So to find peace, to get back to your own life and your own stuff, you’re finding that you have to choose one side or the other, either your mom’s new family or your dad’s new family, because you can’t unify the new separated-family, there’s simply too much anger, and resentment, and blame. So you had to choose  one new family or the other, and you chose to go with your mom’s new family. But that makes you sad because you miss your dad (don’t tell me you don’t, I know you do).  But there’s too much anger and conflict.  It just hurts too much to try to hold the family together in a new separated-family structure.   So you have to make a choice. That’s okay. I wish you didn’t have to choose. I wish you could belong to both new families, your dad’s and your mom’s, that way your old family would still be alive, it would just be a new separated-family structure instead of the old together-family structure.

I know that you have to do what you have to do. And that’s okay. When you’re older you’ll be strong enough to return to your father and love both your father and your mother.  But right now that’s not possible is it. Right now, in order to find peace, you have to choose.  What your dad wants you to know, though, is that he understands the position you’re in.  No worries.  He loves you and will always love you, and he’ll wait for you when you’re old enough and strong enough to love both your dad and your mum. So focus on your life right now, and make your dad and mum proud. If you have the chance, text your dad from time to time and let him know you love him too. It’ll mean a lot to him. If he tries to pull you back into the middle, just politely let him know that you can’t go there right now because it’s too hard to be in the middle, but that someday it’ll be better – and it will be better.
  
It’s okay to feel sad. When we feel sad, we need a hug. So go get a hug. No need to blame anyone for feeling sad. You just miss the together-family and you miss your dad.  That’s okay to feel those things. If you need to talk to a therapist about the sad, just ask your mum for you to talk to a therapist because you’re sad, or maybe go to the school counselor and ask them to ask your mum. You can keep the stuff you say to the therapist private. Your mum may ask you what you talked about, but that’s okay, you can tell her some things and still keep other stuff private.

When you’re old enough and strong enough, you’ll be able to fix things with your dad. He’ll be right there waiting for you. And then you’ll be able to love both your dad and your mum, and everything will be okay.  Big hug from me.  You’re the best.

Craig Childress, Psy.D.
Child and Family Psychologist, PSY 18857 
 

Wednesday, 6 April 2016

Hi Tara Murphy Daughter of Paul R Murphy

Hi Tara Louise Murphy.
I want you to watch these video's because your future and your happiness depends on it.  

This subject will decide your future relationships with:
  • Your relationships with your friends
  • Your future relationships with your boyfriend and your future husband
  • Your future children
  • Your relationships with work people
In fact this subject will decide your happiness and the love you receive in life.  You won't understand it until you view all 9 videos.  

I have posted this because I want you to be happy, have the best life and I want you to be loved by all.

Watch it on Youtube and watch it on your own.  After you have watched it on your own please decide for yourself if you want to share it with others.

Always remember this Tara...I will never encourage you to distance or cut off any family member or loved one that you care about and none of my family would ever do that either.

Love Dad. xoxoxoxo



Tara Louise Murphy Perth
Tara Murphy Western Australia


Monday, 14 March 2016

Hi Tara Louise Murphy | Remember how you love to swim

Just a short note for Tara Louise Murphy to say hello.

I am thinking about things we did when we were together.  I was thinking about the end of summer and how its still hot enough to go swimming in Perth.  Can't really do that here in Melbourne.  I loved how we went swimming at the local pools and if you remember I taught you how to dive head first into the water.

I also remember you loved diving into the deep end once you mastered the diving and you went in over and over again because you loved it so much and you had so much energy then too.  We used to love having a bucket of hot chips and a drink at the end of the day.  Those chips were really good with salt and vinegar.

We tried to teach Kiera how to dive but she was a little nervous.  Maybe she has the hang of it by now.

You were also a great swimmer and I hope you have kept up the swimming (I'm sure you have).

I would like to teach you many other things in life but maybe one day later in life we can talk about it.  Any-way just a short letter today and hopefully you are well and having a good life.

Love Dad
xoxoxoxo




Wednesday, 13 January 2016

Tara Murphy-I Hope You Had a Great Christmas

Dear Tara,
I was glad to receive your Christmas present and I am having a coffee right now from your marvellous cup.  I am also looking forward to going to the movies with the gift card as well.

I am not sure if we like the same movies but I have planned to see a sci-fi called the Fifth Wave and I would also like to see Revenent and not to forget Star Wars.  I think you would also like to see these movies.

I hope your new iPhone is working out well for you.  Thanks for sending Kevin a message of thanks. He wanted to give it away because he had two of them and I said can he give it to you.  Its not every day that you can get an opportunity like that.  I did some work for Kevin and he owed me a favour so I want you to know that I also indirectly contributed to the iPhone.

I hope one day soon in the future you will want to come to Melbourne for a holiday to see me and see your relatives as well.  Lisa and I have people staying with us all the time and Lisa's nieces and nephews who are a similar age to you stay very often.  You would like them they are very funny people.  They live in Narooma NSW and stay often.

In six months I will be moving to a new apartment and it has a spare room that you could stay in.  Its very close to the city and you could do lots of shopping and take in the sites and meet Lisa as well. She would love to meet you Tara and you will like her because she is a very funny person.  She says she is even funnier than me and I will have to agree with that.

I want you to know that you are welcome to come over and I will pay for the airfare and your accommodation is free of course so you can come over any time.  You are only 3 hours away on a plane Tara.

The Apartment has an outdoor cinema and its own gym with a lap pool.  Click on the link to see how it will look.  http://ettaro.com.au/interiors   and take a look around the website to see all the features.

I will sign off now but I want you to remember that all the things in our past can be fixed in a short time and you will be happy seeing me again.  We have to speak again Tara and you will realise there is nothing to fear and you will have a good life knowing you can come to Melbourne to see us without feeling unsure about seeing me and the other large family you have in Melbourne.

I also understand you also have family in Perth who you love and need to think of as well. I would not ever encourage you to not see anyone that was important to you but you need to know the other side of your family here in Melbourne as well.  What is the harm in knowing your Father and your other relatives?

You have never been a stranger to us and we should never be strangers to you. That is why your family in Melbourne will never give up on you Tara.  Family are never considered strangers no matter how much time has passed by.

Love you and miss you
Dad
xoxoxoxoxo




Thursday, 17 December 2015

Its Almost Christmas!

Hi Tara
I am just writing a short letter before Christmas to let you know what I have been up to.

As usual in Printing it gets really busy just before Christmas and I have been working many hours.  I know you have probably been busy with your end of school exams and winding down for the holiday break.  I hope you did well at school this year and if I was closer to you I would of course want to help you.

I have been shopping around for presents for Xmas and I had your Xmas gift already sorted when a better gift option for you was offered to me.  I wish I was there when you opened it because I know you are going to love it.

Lisa and I decided to buy another car to share between us.  My old car was up for some big money to be spent on it so we traded it in for a more up to date second hand car.

Peugeot 4008



We are happy with this car and we will be able to travel with a bit more comfort than the small cars we had before.

Lisa and I are going to Narooma for the Xmas break and it would be great if one day you could come along.  You would love it there as there are so many things to do.



Any-way I hope you are well and I will right to you on here again after Christmas.  I hope you have a wonderful Xmas and a Happy New Year.

Love Dad
xoxoxoxox

Thursday, 12 November 2015

Letter Number four to Tara Murphy

Hi Tara
I have titled this letter number four but its only number four on this blog.  I have probably written over one hundred letters large and small to you.  I would love you to reply to any of my letters.  It's been almost five years now.  I am only trying to do my best at making some kind of reconnection with you.

Anyway, let's lighten things up a bit.  I have been working many hours lately and printing is at its busiest time coming up to Christmas.  Sometimes it feels like I just get home and it's time to go to bed and get up for work again.  Maybe that is a sign I need to go on a short holiday to get away and have some rest.

Not long now until Christmas is upon us and all the catching up with family will begin.  I have a busy time this year catching up with family and as you know your Grandfather lives in Rosebud and your Grandmother lives in Geelong and Lisa's parents live about two hours thirty minutes drive away.   So I have to split my travel time up between everyone at Christmas.

As in most cases I am the driver and Lisa and I take Kevin and Luis as they don't drive and I am sure they like to get chauffeur driven everywhere.  Although, Lisa always offers to drive but she can't reach the pedals in my car.  Its not the she is really short because she isn't it just my car seat won't come forward enough for her.

So to cut a long story short...this Christmas I am going to:

  1. Dad's in Rosebud
  2. Mum's in Geelong
  3. Lisa's parents house in Cobram
In between all that I will also be catching up with friends, work Christmas party and Lisa's family have a reunion party every year. 

I have also finally received my Led Zeppelin DVD the you helped pay for.   It took a while and thanks again for sending me the father's day present (Sanity Gift Card)

One other thing I bought recently was a BBQ and I had to put it together myself.   Took two hours but worth it in the end.  See images below.

Anyway I tried to keep this letter short but it got out of hand.

Love you and miss you so much
Dad
xoxoxoxoxoxo

Thank You for the Father's Day Gift Card I love it.
My new toy. Hope to have some good times on the balcony with friends and family.

Wednesday, 4 November 2015

To Tara Murphy. My week end in Cobram

Hi Tara
I have just come back from a great week end away in Cobram.  Its on the Victoria/New South Wales border.  Just having a relax and a bit of a look around.  Lisa and I go to many Opp shops to see if we can find a bargain or two.  There are many good things to pick up in the rural area's of Australia if you look around.

While I was there we experienced a big storm which turned into a mini tornado.  We saw some damage to houses and many trees down.  See picture gallery.

When we are in Cobram we like to go the Murray river and walk around.  Its a very beautiful place with lots of history to see.

One other funny thing that happened to Lisa and I on the weekend is a possum got into Lisa's apartment.   It was a ring tail possum and I had to try and get it out of the house.  It was a bit tricky at first as he didn't seem to want to go but he ended up walking back out the same door he came in.  You can also see the pictures in the photo gallery.

Any-way besides driving around the country side and working I haven't been doing anything else.   It would be great to hear from you Tara and how you are going?  It will be 5 years this New Years Eve since I had heard from you.

Hope to hear from you soon
Love you and miss you
Dad
xoxoxoxoxox

Monday, 26 October 2015

Hi Tara

I hope you are well and happy as can be.

Well it has been quite a while since I have written a letter on here.  I have decided not to write on your Facebook page so this is the best way to write online for now.

I was also thinking about hand written letters but it is a very time consuming way to communicate these days.   I will be able to upload photo's easier this way and you can see them whenever you want.

I hope you are doing well at school and make sure your study hard and get good marks at school.  It is not long now before you need to start thinking about what you want to do for a career.

I went on a family BBQ last week end and it would have been nice for you to be there.  It was a great day at a park close to the beach.  Many of your family members were there and it is time you started to get to know them.

I am still living with your uncle Daniel but in about 10 months I am moving to an apartment which is where I intend to stay for the long term.  I will send you a copy of what it looks like.

Lisa and I are also planning to build a weekend getaway on her family's farm.  You would love to stay on the farm because its very old and has been in the family for many generations.  They have old cars, a quad bike, old wooden wagons and tractors with some old buildings as well.  They have cows on the farm and there are some resident koalas there too.

Always remember that you are welcome here any time you want to come over.

I will upload some photo's on here when I have the time.
Love Dad
xoxoxoxoxo

Monday, 8 April 2013

Tara Louise Murphy. Letters from your Dad to remind you of how much I love you and miss you.

Hi Tara,
This is the first of my letters and it is the only way I can communicate to you about how much I care about you and how I want you to be safe and happy.  I am going to post my letters on this site for you to read and come back to whenever you feel like reading them.  You can add to them if you want and I would be happy if you did.  It is designed for you so you can have some idea of what I am doing with my life.  I will be posting some photo's of family and friends and what I have been doing.  As I get more used to using this website, I will add more interesting things to it, so keep your eye on any changes from week to week.

 It is still going through the construction stage so keep coming back here to see the progress.  I will be adding more photo's of family and things I have been up to.  You can become a member if you want to add something to write.
Tara as a baby bonding with Dad



Tara Murphy